It Bugs Me

Hrumm…it has been awhile since I felt this way.

Maybe it is just another phase I tell myself.

But there is a part of me that does not like whatever it is I am becoming or that I am today.

It makes me upset that I can’t figure it out.

I see myself acting the way I do, I hear the kind of things I say and I should say but do not say.

It bugs me, it bugs me a lot.

I just cannot seem to figure it out.

And for some odd reason, not that it is bad.

In fact I think it is the most beautiful thing that has happened to me so far.

It is him, who makes me happy and jolly inside and out.

If only he was here with me every day I think I would be better.

But I know I can make it without always having him hold my hand.

He makes me want to be better for myself and for him.

Maybe I am trying too hard…nah, actually it is not.

Everything about us is the best =)

And everything about my family is wonderful.

I miss them a lot and I would love to see them.

Although I may worry from time to time, I know God is watching over them.

And everything about my courses is great! I love them.

To be honest, it is the friends in my life

It is the communication

It is the understanding

It is the……I wish I could be a better friend to them.

I guess you could say, I feel like I’m not good enough for them.

And then they’ll say, “Aww..don’t feel that way.”

But honestly I do.