My perspective on life in general has swayed in many directions these past few months. Now it's all finally coming together. We'll it's starting to...like things that include God, family, school, friends, and relationships. I am finally starting to feel some inner peace inside of me. I like where I am at again and it feels great; even though I am getting homesick. =( I have not seen my family since August and that makes it about 10 months now. Almost a year! wow! The best part about it is that I am going home this summer, no summer courses, internships, leadership stuff, and work that is keeping me on campus. "FINALLY", that is the only thing I can say, FINALLY!
"Finally, I will get to see my parents!......Finally, I will be home for Mother's Day AND Father's Day!.......Finally, I will get to take my baby sister swimming!......Finally, I will get to see my new born baby nephew that I have not met yet, Edward!.....Finally, I will get to see the new place my parent's got.....Finally, I can spend more than just ONE week in Oklahoma!......Finally, I get to cook Meals for the family and have Rice everyday,lol.....Finally, Ma and I can just have our all time favorite "Girl's Day"......Finally, Dad and I can go fishing together again and catch some sunnys for fun......Finally, I will get to meet the new church congregation......Finally, I will be home for my own Birthday!......Finally, I can just do the little simple things.
You never really know how much you can miss out on until you are on your own. Do not get me wrong, I mean I enjoy being by myself and pursing all the things that I want to do one step at a time. But if doing those things do not let you share it with the people you love. What's the worth? That you got what you wanted and that is it?! Hummm...I wonder. Nope, not for me then.
I think I have come quite a ways to be where I am at today. I mean some people do not even have the chances that I do, and some people are beyond where I am at. There will always be people in front of you and people behind you, but do not count their worth, but yours. Sometimes we get carried away trying to find inspiration in the wrong things. When really we should start with ourselves. =)
I have paved myself a road. I have taken many turns and I admit there has been times I had to turn back, but that doesn't keep me from going. Along the way I have lost many individuals that I would have loved to keep on this journey of mines. Yet I have gained many who are here to share this journey with me, I am very blessed.
Life gets better, but it also gets much tougher. Let each day put a smile on your face and many laughter that causes tears in your eyes. Never let a day go by without doing, always out do a day =)
Ask yourself this:
"Are you living.....? Or are you just existing?"
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