Phone Call

Have you ever called someone only to know you'll always end up with their voice mail? And the fact that it becomes so repetitive you don't seem to get nervous anymore if they'll pickup, because you already know they won't.
Or have you ever had someone called you from time to time just to ignore it. But after the first few times, you say to yourself "If they call again, I'll pickup this time," but only to know the phone went dead without another ring.
Why? Why do we torture ourselves and the other person? What good can really come out of it?
It's almost like losing your chance to tell someone you love them or say what you want to say to them, because we are too stubborn. Sometimes I question why we do certain things to ourselves....

One day....I might just really disappear out of your life & when that day comes, you'll know a little too late.
But for now, I'll be here....with the littlest strength that I have left, I'll hold onto it.... until it slips, that way I will at least know I gave it my all.